Wow! Just Wow! That was all I could really say when I received the call from my sister. She went to the hospital because she wasn't feeling good. She then found out that she was pregnant. In a matter of just a couple of hours she found out she was pregnant, 6 months pregnant, and it is a boy! The due date in April 26th just one day after her 40th birthday!
This is so great but, at the same time thoughts are running through my head. She is finally at a place in her life where I feel she can handle a baby but she has had set backs before this one. She has been pregnant a couple times before which she has miscarried. I am scared that could happen again. Her age of course doesn't help either. I am not going to dwell on the past of her age because I will just think happy thoughts. It will be wonderful for someone to call her mommy. I know what joy that brings me to hear my kids say that and I know it will bring her the same.
I have always seen the hurt and longing in her eyes to have a baby. Sometimes I think she resented me for having my first 2. She loves them to death don't get me wrong but she wanted to have one of her own. Then almost a year ago I came to her with the news that I was having number 3 and again she was happy for me but was still longing for her own. She had asked me numerous times to just think about having one for her and then when I had all the problems with Cole and getting my tubes tied she once again lost hope.
As I stated before she has lost 2 almost full term babies before. I do feel that everything happens for a reason and why we may not always understand why God does certain things he does them for a reason. My sister was in a bad place back when she was pregnant before and as much as I hated to see the pain that she went through, which is a pain I would never want anyone in deal with, I can see why. Now, now she is the sister I always wanted growing up. She is healthy, in a great relationship, not even smoking anymore, and loves herself for the first time. With her loving herself I know she will love this baby and be a great mom. That is something I would have never said years ago, I was scared for those babies. Now granted she is gonna need help and guidance but for that she has me, our mom, great friends, and even Kota who has learned a thing or two :).
All I ask is that everyone keep her in your prayers. I only wish that she is healthy and has a happy and healthy baby boy!
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