All That Weight on My Shoulders...Be Gone!

Hey Chics!

The past 2 days have just been awesome! I feel so good! This Weight Watchers idea...yea I should have had that a long time ago! I love it! But on to other business first...

I went for my final divorce hearing today! I know what you are asking..."Wait, isn't she planning a wedding?" The answer is, yes. I have been separated from my exhusband for about 6 years. When we slip up it was very bad. I left because I did not like how I was being treated and I wasn't going to take it anymore. The crap that I went through though I did not want to put my kids through. I didn't want a custody battle or battles on child support so I waited to file. I wasn't expecting us to become best friends but I did want us to be able to be in the same room together and have a conversation about our children. 6 years later, it is way better then I could have ever hoped for. 

Just walking out of that court room today I felt something lift off of me. A lot of relief for sure. It was another thing weighing me down that I wanted gone. A part of my past I wanted to put to rest. Sure we have a son together but that is where I want it to end. I wish him all the best and I will always be here for him but now as a friend.

Ok, Now back to this Weight Watchers thing...I love it! I have been sticking to my points even when eating out! It is so much easier to count than calories and stick to it more. I am more aware of what I am eating because those points when it comes to food are priceless. I am also happy to say that John (the hubby to be) will be joining me on this now. Of course he has way more points than I do but I know he will do great on it!

Also, today I worked out more than I have in years! 40 straight minutes! And I feel awesome! I now have 2 months to get into my dress and to be honest I do some of my best work under pressure! I hope to go and try it on one day this week to see how far I need to go and then again at the beginning of next month!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

The Points Matter...

Hey Chics!

So I am not feeling to great and I am pretty sure it is because of the crap I ate today and I am paying for it. So I am going to make this kinda short and sweet. 

As of lately I have still been struggling with eating. It sucks too. I knew this would be the hardest thing for me to do but I am going to try a new thing. I am going to be counting points instead of calories with Weight Watchers! I am still not sure if I will be doing this online or going to meetings so until then I have a great mommy who gave me all of her stuff to get me started. First, my mom loves the program and did great on it. The problem always goes back to money.

Let's face it...WW is not cheap. For me to get started online it is $50.00 and although it is for a 3 month membership I just don't have it right now. Plus they want you to buy all kinds of stuff and it just isn't in the budget. So I am going to go this route for a week to see if I am able to do it at home and just online or if I will need meetings. 

My points allowance is 28 points. I think this will be easier because when I am eating out the calories overwhelm me. So with a great app (I will post tomorrow) I can just look it up on there and I only have to deal with a 2 digit number. If you would like to know your points allowance you can go to http://www.healthyweightforum.org/eng/calculators/ww-points-allowed/   punch in a few numbers and you are good to go. 

I hope at least one person will do this with me. I have this blog and my FB page but I feel really lonely sometimes because the only reason I know people read this is because I can see but I don't know if they are return people or just google something and I pop up.

See you at the weigh in tomorrow!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

How to be an Inspiration?

Hey Chics!

Sorry you haven't heard from me for a few days but I have been going non stop! I have had something that personally bothered the crap out of me and I have been wondering if it is just me...

I have a weight loss page that I "liked" because it is a young lady who lost a lot of weight and is now on there to motivate people and to be an inspiration. After reading her story I could relate BIG time! How could I not like her page. I also book marked her website because for once I found someone that would tell you everything she ate and used for FREE! No signing up or anything. I really felt that I found someone who I could learn more from and lean to. (By the way this is not Ruby who I love to pieces. I just wanted to clarify that).

Then one day I go on to her page to see a pic that she put up of a tank top she wanted to have made that said "I would rather be flat than fat." I one word I was...pissed! Was I laughing...nope. Is it funny?....maybe to someone who is skinny. I personally couldn't believe she had posted that. Did she forget who that "fat" girl was that she once was and the struggle it was to get to where she was today? What about the women and girls that were on there looking up to her and loving the support she was giving? Was this really the message she wanted to send? 

While the picture was up she got a lot of feedback and it was mixed. Us "fat girls" were taking it way to seriously. And the "skinny people" had no idea how it felt. Did I comment? No, didn't see the point. I figured she would take the picture down, and she did. Did she apologize if she hurt anyone's feelings? Nope. 

I am all about telling it how it is and how you feel. What I have a problem with is if you know your audience why would you go to that level. I also know she has a body sculpting page and I feel it would have been more suited for that page.

I am sure she is an awesome inspiration for many people, but not me now. I love my blog and my page and I wish more people were on board with me. I am not here to put anyone down. I want to laugh and cry with people about this journey. 

Tomorrow I have an announcement about what I am doing next. I am done with soda and I am getting there with the exercise but when it comes to eating out I screw myself time and time again...see what I am hoping to help with that tomorrow.

xoxoxo,
Kelly  

You Choose Your Workout Path

Hey Chics!

I have been a little annoyed for over a week about something and I wanted to voice my opinion about something...but first, let me tell you the whole story...

As we know I am trying to get this weight off so that I can fit into my wedding dress. I bought the PINK Method and the plan is to eat healthy. Well, while at my sisters (normally I don't call anyone out but this time I am) her and my mother ganged up on me. My sister got married a couple months ago and had a similar problem with her dress. She decided to do a workout where you stand in the living room and walk. She also got my mom on board with it also. That is great! I am so proud of both of them that they found something they like! The problem is they wanted to tell me that is what I needed to do to lose the weight. That I could do it with Cole up and that it works. There is only one problem to that...BORING! For me I don't feel like walking in place in my living room. Sure you do squats and lunges and use bands but it just doesn't catch my interest. As for exercising with Cole, I will pass. I enjoy exercising alone if I am not at the gym because it is my time. 

I love the Pink Method because I am always doing something different. I do cardio and strength training at the same time and working more than just one muscle at a time. If I need any help it is in the eating department and I think I may have a good idea for that, we can talk about that tomorrow though.

What I am trying to say though is do what you want to do. Don't let anyone shove anything down your throat. If it doesn't interest you it is not going to work and you will give up and that is not an option anymore! We got this!

Ah, I feel better now. See you tomorrow!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Weigh in Day...Drumroll Please!

Hey Chics!

This is going to be a mini blog because it is already after 12am and I am up too late but I could not go to bed without telling you my weight loss...or gain. First though I would like to share a recipe that I got off of Ruby's 30 Day Challenge. If you are not aware of Ruby's 30 day challenge it is on You Tube as well as facebook and twitter. The link for You Tube is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1PEFHvGsxo&feature=relmfu 


Turkey Meatloaf Muffins
Calories: 80
Fats: 2 grams
Carbs: 4 grams
Protein: 11 grams

Ingredients:

2 lbs ground turkey (or chicken)
3 egg whites
1 cup quick cooking oats
1/2 tsp ground cumin
1/2 tsp dried thyme
2 tsp dry yellow mustard
2 tsp black pepper
2 tsp chipotle pepper spice
1 tsp salt
2 tbsp garlic powder (2 cloves minced)
1 small onion (finely chopped)
2 celery stalks (finely chopped)
Directions:

1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees.
2. Spray muffin pan with canola or olive oil.
3. Mix all your ingredients together in one large bowl.
4. Roll the mixture into balls and place in muffin pan. Muffins should be about the size of a racquetball.
5. Bake for 40 minutes.
Makes 12 muffins.

Serving Size:
Women: 2 muffins
Men: 4 muffins

I have not tried them yet but they sound so good!

Ok, on to my weigh in

Weight: 196
Lbs Lost: 2.5!

Would I have liked to seen more, ofcourse. But I am so happy with a loss. It shows you that sure you can mess up but just some modifying can help. I believe this loss is from getting away from the soda and the beginning of working out!

Tomorrow I will be on much earlier so we can talk about atleast 1 of the 2 things that have been on my mind!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

My Beautifully Bad Vacation

Hey Chics!

Sorry I have not been on in the past couple of days but at the last minute we deiced to take a much needed mini vacation. We took the kids to Wild Adventures in GA. We had so much fun but I was not ready for a vacation...not even close when it came to being in the right state of mind for eating so I had an epic fail, as my kids would say.

I normally have a month or so to prepare for a trip not 2 hours. So I had no food to pack and I pretty much said ok I can do this. First I thought I could handle it. We stopped at a convenience store and I got a Sobe water (and by the way that water is so good!) and a bag of popcorn. Not the best but hey not even close to the worst. Then after we checked in to the hotel and asked around where to eat we ended up at a country buffet.

Now I am the first to say if you are trying to lose weight do not even think about going into a buffet. You will have no idea what you are eating and the calories...oh just looking at them will make you fat. The reason we even go to a buffet is because of my youngest son Cole. He is almost 2 and a screamer! No patience whatsoever and when he is done, well you better be done too. So long story short...I ate 2 pieces of fried chicken (it was white meat like it really matters) 5 popcorn shrimp, mashed potatoes and gravy, green beans (hey those were good for me), and fries. You know I didn't even realize that there was a salad bar in there until we were leaving!

This bring me to day 2. On our way out to Wild Adventures I had a chicken biscuit. We got in the park and I was just having my water and feeling good. Then the heat set in. I did have a couple cheese fries. But I was trying to cool off and water wasn't working so I got one of the frozen lemonades and it sucked! Nothing was working so I gave in and got a Sprite and I was good to go. I sweat so much I thought I would be good to go. So we left and once again we hit another buffet and as we walked in all I saw was Chinese food. This was not pretty...potatoes, 3 pieces of sweet and sour chicken, 1 chicken on a stick, chicken and broccoli (that was good for me), and honey chicken and a Pepsi. I am so ashamed!

So why am I telling you all of this? I am trying to be real. Yup I screwed up. I am also showing you that please be prepared if you are going on a vacation and if you do slip up then jump back on the wagon as soon as you get home...which bring me to today...

Exercise: None, I tired but I look like a tomato from being in the sun too long but I will tomorrow no matter how much it hurts

Breakfast: None, kinda slept through it since we didn't get home till late

Lunch: 6 nuggets and a small fry 510 calories

Dinner: 4oz london broil, cauliflower, green beans, mashed potatoes 413 calories

Snack: 1 med. banana 105 calories

Water: 3 8oz water

Total Calories: 1028 calories

Back on the wagon tomorrow! I will see you then and it is weigh in day!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Keepin it Between the Lines

Hey Chics!

First I want to apologize for the blog from yesterday. I think I need to keep this more on a weight loss level than my personal life level. Granted, you will hear a lot about it but I want to talk about it if it affected my weight loss or I over came it. Yesterday I was just plain out venting. Granted, sometimes you need to and I do feel better but I want to get back on track with blog I set out to write.

Any who...I hope everyone had a great day! Mine was a lot of ups and downs. I can tell you one thing I have learned in the past few days. I am 110% an emotional eater who is addicted to food. I have been the biggest pain in the ass the past couple of days and if you have been around me and had to deal with me I am so sorry! I know now what someone who gives up cigarettes is like to begin with. I am so horrible I will even bless my own heart lol. The one thing I have liked though is I am speaking my mind and standing up for myself a lot more. Here I will give you an example... Today someone, after I had already said no, tried to give my daughter something I did not want her to have. After then thought it was funny and wouldn't just let it go I got mad and yelled and stormed out of the house and in the end my daughter did not take it. Was a little on edge today? Damn right I was :)

It is after 11:00pm when I am finally getting a chance to write this. My nights just get longer and longer. I did exercise right before I wrote this and to be honest my arms are still shaking. Tonight I did strength push which is pretty much all of your push muscles, I worked my arms, abs, and legs. I also had to see how many push ups I could do in 30 seconds. The first time I did 15 and the second time I did 18. Yup they were girlie pushups but I am still proud of myself that I did as many as I could and didn't stop. 

As for food today...once again it was up and down. Plans changed for the day at one point and I found myself in the drive thru and just ordered. It seems like after you have ordered a meal by its number time and time again you become brainwashed and no matter if you are trying to eat healthy you just blurt out that damn number! On a better note though I was at my sisters house today and there was pizza, alcohol, soda, and cake. Out of all of that I had a sliver of cake. I can't even call it a piece it was so small. I did not keep up with my journal though so as I type this up I will see my calorie intake for the first time...

Breakfast: Smoothie 290 cal
Lunch: #8 Grilled Chicken Meal 990cal (I almost cried when I saw this)
Dinner: Baked chicken, mixed veggies, broccoli 373 Cal
Snack: Sliver of Chocolate cake: 200 cal (I am guessing from what I have googled)
Water: 6, 8oz glasses 

Total Calories: 1853 calories. I went way over! Tomorrow will be better!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Kiss My Grits!...

Hey Chics!

Right now as I am sitting here I am trying to figure out what I am going to write about. Opps, I think I got it. That was the shortest case of writers block ever! 

As we all know I am getting married and if you didn't know that...now you do. I will be getting married to a great man in November. I can't wait. I have been planning the wedding non stop and now I have taken a break from it being my life to start blogging again. I am way ahead of schedule so no problem :).

Anyway, the reason I am talking about this is because some things have been told to me that have hurt me. If you are on my Face Book page I have talked about it before and the support that was received was more than I could have asked for. But I want to get it all off of my chest right now rather than just a short paragraph on a wall.

I have seen many a friend get married that I did not agree with. Some of them are divorced and some have stayed together but not one time did I knock their decision or the future spouse. I do the right thing...smile and nod. Now if it was something as bad as physical or mental abuse then no, I wouldn't be so kind. Now though when it comes to me getting married somewhere along the line I became the exception to the rule and some people have had a field day talking behind our backs and in the end it will come full circle and back to me. Now sure you could tell me to let it go and it doesn't matter. But what if it is family? And what if you found out that it was going from family member to family member? Does it make it more hurtful? You are damn right it does. How will your fiance' feel after that?Would you want to go around people that weren't to sure if your marriage was going to work? Hell no! Now if one particular person reads this (you know who you are) this is not even close to being all about you). I actually got to the point I was ready to call the wedding off and go elope because why have a wedding that people don't seem to approve of. Then I thought to myself...if ya don't like it then don't come :)

Now I am going on to another part of my wedding journey...engagement pics! First off, they came out so good! I love them. Once I got them back I was so happy to show them to everyone and then as I am showing them to one person who means so much to me but we have been butting heads through the whole wedding process I was told..."you look like you lost 50lbs in these pics." How do you take that? As a compliment or a punch in the gut? After looking at some of the other pics I did realize that my tummy was cropped (which I loved lol) but then brought me to the realization that it wasn't a nice comment in my eyes. If there is one thing that bothers me right now it is my weight so a comment like that was now necessary. So all I have left to say is....
KISS MY GRITS! 

On to other business...

Today was a decent day. I had a couple slip ups but still no soda. I did get to exercise too!

Exercise: 20 mins of Kardio (that is how they spell it on PINK METHOD) I was suppose to do another video to of Yoga but I am going to have to tweak my exercising because at 10 at night 20 mins is all I have left in me!

Breakfast: Smoothie 290 cal.
Lunch: Salad 290 cal.
Dinner: Hot Dog and French Fries 405 cal
(I would not have eaten this but I burnt dinner because I was trying to cook without butter in a cast iron skillet and failed! So I have 1 hotdog and 15 french fries)
Snack 1: 2 bites of raspberry bar 105cal.
Snack 2. 7 pretzels and 1tbsp of hummus 100 cal
Snack 3: Apple 80 cal
Water: 8, 8oz glasses
Total Cal: 1270

I think I am done for the night. Thank you for listening to me vent, again.  After I finished blogging last night I felt so much better. I keep so much bottled up and to release it feels incredible! Tomorrow I am going to talk about trying to blend a family that seems un-blendable!


xoxoxo,
Kelly

Time to Dust off the Old Blog

Hey Chics!
I am BACKKKKKK! For good this time. I am getting closer and closer to walking down the aisle naked if I don't get my butt in gear to get this weight off. So today I made a promise to myself it is time to quit screwing around and put my big girl panties on and get down to business!

If you follow me on Face Book (and if you don't then please join me http://www.facebook.com/pages/Bye-Bye-Chunky-Chic/137237093057062 )the one thing I found that starts today is Ruby's 30 Day Challenge. I love her as I have stated in many many blogs ago. So along with my PINK Method I will be going along with her 30 Day Challenge. Please check her out on You Tube to get all the info. 

Day 1: 

• Get a journal to log EVERYTHING you put in your mouth to eat and drink and keep a calorie count
• Drink plenty of water which means 8-10 8oz glasses of water a day 
• Write down a goal for the week. Any goal just something you want to do...DREAM BIG! 
• Get Moving! 

 I don't think that is much to ask in one day. I did it, even with Cole hanging on me.  


So now let me tell you why I have been gone. I just didn't care. Every Monday I would say I will start and I barely would get out of bed and say screw it. I have been so depressed for so many reasons. I am so happy to be getting married but trying to blend a family is a pain in the ass. It was going great and then it seemed to just blow up and I should be skinny by now because I am pulled in two different directions to the point I would be so skinny because I am surprised that I haven't been split in half yet. Family means everything to me and I just smile and deal but sometimes I think they are more worried about who is right then someone stepping up and being the hero (yup I got that from Dr. Phil). 


I have also taken on more of a role in the business that I do when Cole is asleep as well as all of my normal stay at home mom stuff and not to mention Cole being Velcroed to me 24/7. So I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water sometimes but I make it work. But then again I am not taking the time I need to get this weight off. You could tell me to wake up earlier but 6:30 with Cole is early enough. I am not a morning person...period. So I am going to squeeze it in either during naptime or nighttime. 


Well that is enough for tonight so time for the rundown...

Weight: 198.5


Exercise: With the PINK Method you get 1 day off and that day is going to be Monday because that is normally when my dad is over and doesn't leave till 11:00pm so it is the best day to take off


Breakfast: Breakfast Smoothie


Lunch: Salad


Dinner: 6oz Steak
                 Broccoli
                 Baked Potato
                 Sweet Tea

Snack 1: Bloomin Onion


Snack 2: Apple Slices


Water intake: 8 glasses of water


The Good: No Soda for the day! I am also proud that I did not take any of the baked goodies Cole and John where eating today.


The Bad: Sweet Tea is a no-no but a huge love of mine right along with the potato


The UGLY: THE BLOOMIN ONION! But it was so good...and FREE! Doesn't make it right and I will try not to do it again. 


Tomorrow I will start adding the calories to it also because let's face it with that bloomin onion I think it is safe to say I went over in calories :)


I think that is about it for tonight. I have a lot more to say but I still have a house to clean!


xoxoxo
Kelly