You Learn A LOT When You Don't Eat Your Emotions...

Hey Chics! I am sorry it has been a couple days but I had to take a step back and start to see some things going on in my life and they have been eye opening and one I just figured out today!

First off this past weekend was a blast. I was able to spend some grown-up time with John and we went to dinner and came home and relaxed. The next day we went to a flea market and then to lunch. Did I behave myself at all...nope. I felt horrible after but it was so good. I will say though it was so nice and peaceful just the two of us and then as soon as we picked up the kids I picked back up my stress right along with it. 

Yesterday I started the PINK Method exercise and I only got through 13mins of it because Cole woke up but I can say it is kick ass! I feel like I worked out for 2 hrs! You aren't just working 1 muscle group at a time. I was working my core, legs, and arms all at the same time! I didn't do it today and I will fill you in on why in just a minute.

I have been very stressed and depressed the past week or so. I have no feeling of accomplishment anymore. I use to have a job with dead lines and people needing me to do things and answer questions in a structured environment. Now it is a struggle to get the dishes in the dishwasher without Cole trying to climb in it or just scream. I am constantly finding myself holding back tears that just want to come out but I have to be the strong mommy. So instead I eat. Yesterday I couldn't stop eating! Today has been better. It is just so hard I can't get on a schedule and I feel so unmotivated. I am already having to get up at 6am and by the time I get back home from taking Dustin Cole is up. I don't know how long the naps are going to last and I finally get my break once everyone is in bed and that time is devoted to cleaning (and writing my blog). It is not in me to beable to stay up till 1am and then be up at 6am. I'm not that damn young anymore! I love my kids and I could never picture my life without them but I have to find balance. I am truly scared I am going to have a stroke one of these days if I can't get my stress under control. 

So tomorrow is a new day. I have a DR. appointment to goto. Hopefully I will see the end of the bp pills but I doubt it. And I hope to get a full day in of exercise. 

Oh and my weight is 188lbs. You see I gained 3lbs back but not for long!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

Wow,What a Day!

Hey Chics! I don't know what is going on with me right now but it has been one hell of a day! I am not sure if it is just nerves, stress, or depression. It was not a good day to say in the least. Just trying to straighten my hair put me in tears. 

So once again this is going to be extremely short because I am not even in the mood to be on the computer. I know I am shocked as much as you are. I am mainly on here to say that tomorrow is going to be the day I begin exercising! I am so glad and maybe I can release some of this stress. 

With this diet and me it seems like after this 1st stage once I lost the 5lbs that was it! No more gone so it is time to move on to the next phase so I need to go read up on it and then I will report to you tomorrow and maybe a recipe or 2.

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Weekends Suck!

Hey Chics! This is going to be short and sweet cause I am just tuckered out from Cole today!

There has not been any weight loss in the past couple days and I am sure I know why. Weekends suck! When it comes to eating this is when I mess up the most. We are always on the go so we are always eating out! I am just happy I haven't gained anything back. 

Plus the wedding expo we went to was so much fun! I loved eating all the cake samples. And then right after I shoved cake in my mouth the next booth was a nutrition booth. Go figure lol. So I had a weight loss drink with my cake lol. 

I also got my dress today but they were so busy I couldn't get to try it on so I am going to tomorrow and see if it is big on me! I hope so. 

I am feeling so much better. I am able to fit in my jeans again and I can see it in my face. I am beginning to feel so pretty again!

xoxoxo,
Kelly 

6 Days Later... I Feel Gooder Than Grits!

Hey Chics! So I am on day 6 and I am now 5lbs lighter! I am so amazed by this program so far. I have even messed up a time or two and it is forgiving! I know that I said I was suppose to be on this 1st stage for 14 days but the book also says I can go onto the next phase after losing 5-10lbs. So I really want to start exercising and I am going to start the next phase on Wed as long as I keep the weight off and maybe even lose some more! 

And I am being truthful when I say I feel Gooder than grits! Yesterday I put on an outfit and for the first time in I don't know how long I didn't change. I could look at myself in the mirror and smile. I normally start off with thinking I know what I am going to wear and then maybe 10 shirts later I am so fed up I put on an over sized shirt and went out the door. Today didn't count cause it was so cold I was in sweat shirt mode lol. 

So I saw of my FB page people were asking me how I am doing this so I am going to break down what I am doing. I can not go into full detail cause I would be writing all night so you are going to get the important info.

Breakfast always starts with a smoothie. I have posted earlier the easiest one.
1cup of almond, coconut, rice, or hemp milk
1 scoop whey protein powder
1cup frozen strawberries 
blend

Here is another one:
1 1/2 cups coconut water
1 carrot
1/2 small beet 
1 handful of spinach
2tbsp hemp protein powder
1/4 cup chopped dates 
12 whole frozen strawberries
Blend everything for 90 seconds except the strawberries. Then add strawberries until smooth

For lunch and dinner you need 4oz of lean meat
skinless chicken and turkey
lean cuts of red meat (limit these to a couple times a week)
Eggs
Porkchop 
Any fish pretty much (I don't eat fish so I am not an expert there lol)

For Lunch and Dinner
Eat those veggies!!!

What you can not have:
starches: bread, pasta, potatoes
Mayo
high calorie dressing

Those are very basic guidelines but it gets you in the right direction. This diet is for people in good health and a Dr says it's ok. If you are diabetic you would have to tweak it because you do need some starch. 

Here is another recipe for a soup. I am going to try this during the week.

Cauliflower and Carrot Soup
l head of cauliflower cut into florets
3 large carrots peeled and chopped
4 cups water
2 whole garlic cloves
1/2 white onion chopped
1/2tsp ginger
sea salt to taste

In a large pot bring water to a boil. Then add carrots and cook for 5 mins. Add cauliflower and cover for 8 mins. Add onions and garlic and cook another 5 mins. Remove from heat and add ginger. Puree the soup until creamy. Add sea salt to taste.

Well, I hope that helps a little. Tomorrow I am off to a bridal expo and I hope I can take something away from that. Have a great night!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

The Emotional Eater Came Out to Play!

Hey Chics! Today just sucked! I can't be any more blunt than that. It just was a bad day when it came to eating. I know know 110% that I am an emotional eater. But before I get into all of that let me start with the good things.

I woke up this morning another pound lighter! That is 4.5lbs in 5 days! 

We went and checked out the venue today and I love it and the price! I think we are still going to check out 2 more places but I just don't think they will match my vision and my price. I am going to check out grand oaks and cottom farms. They are so much closer to me but Coon Hollo is what I have always envisioned. We will just have to see.

Well after that it started to get rocky. Cole is still in a lot of pain from the teething and so we went to Chick-fil-a to get something to eat so it would be quick, easy, and doesn't take long to eat. Well as soon as we got in there I could just tell...so I ordered the food and not even realizing what I did I just ordered a number 5 like I always do and didn't even ralize my mistake till I sat down to eat. I can say I ate the chicken but after 2 fries I felt so sick I was done. 

Next, we had our last stop for the day and John went in to drop off a print. Well we didn't know he had to wait till everyone was on the job site was there to talk to him so what normally takes 15 mins took about 1.5hrs. So I sat in a car with a teething, over tired, pissed off baby for that long. Since we were on a job site I wanted to keep him in the car. Then he needed a diaper change and did I have any in the diaper bag? Nope! Not like the key word is DIAPER bag! So then he just screamed 75% of that time. I was then kicked in my throat by him and I was about in tears. And this is when I ate the 3 chips ahoy cookies!

So then we finally get home and there is nothing to eat because since it took so long today I never got to the store. John and I were both tired and our nerves are shot and it is 6:00! So what do we do? KFC here we come! So I had a chicken breast  (skin off) and some green beans.

As for drinks today it was either diet soda or water.

Oh and breakfast there was none because I had no more strawberries! So I am expecting a gain tomorrow on the scale but I really hope I just break even. Since I had all that junk today I feel like crap and I have learned my lesson.

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Back on Track!

Hey Chics! Today was a great day! I am starting to feel better about myself and I think some of the depression I have had off and on is starting to go away. I can't wait to totally feel like me again! 

1st I am happy to say that my blogs have been read over 2,000 times! I am so excited about that! People are even reading my old blogs (and let me tell you if you haven't and love drama then read them lol). There are only a couple of people who have subscribed to it but I look more at the hits that way I know it is being read! So thank you to everyone who reads!

Tomorrow I am going to go look at the place we want to have our wedding. It is Coon Hollo farm in Micanopy. To me it is just perfect. We went there during the fall when they had their corn maze and just fell in love. The family that owns it is so nice and I can't wait to work with them. Here let me show you some pics...

It looks so much prettier at night. But we love it and it will be a blast. Southern food, dancing, and even a hay ride!

OK now down to business...

There was no weight loss or weight gain. I am not upset I did have Mc Donalds so I am not surprised and I am just glad that I didn't gain. Hopefully the scale will be nicer tomorrow.

Breakfast: Yup you guessed it another PINK smoothie. I am happy to report this weekend I will be going shopping so you will see a new recipe.

Lunch: Veggie Beef soup. And what do I do? I get a soup that has potatoes in it! So did I eat them?Nope not at all! I picked them all out and I am so proud of myself because they looked so good!

Dinner: Hamburger (no bun) and broccoli. I didn't even miss the bun!

Snacks: more raw carrots! 

So now it is time for bed. Long day tomorrow! See you tomorrow!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

 

CRAP! I Cheated!

Hey Chics! Yup you read the title right I cheated and I feel like crap about it. I tried to make the best worst choice I could, if that makes any sense. We were running all over the place today looking for dresses for my sisters wedding. Then on top of it Cole has still been dealing with all of the pains of teething! But I will get into more detail about it later.

So we were able to find dresses today! I am happy that it is over with and I only tried on 4. However, I'm not loving the dress. It is her wedding so I will wear it and smile :). We were trying on a bunch and we found 1 style that they had in all of our sizes and it is nice. It is long so well, I look even shorter if that is possible lol. I love the fact it is black! Then I tried on this short black dress and the best part was it has pockets! How can you not love a dress with pockets! My sis was almost sold on it but she passed. So I did the only thing I could do...I bought that one too even though I shouldn't have. I normally have so many body issues when I am in a dress which is probably one of the reasons you never see me in one. Then I tried on this dress and I felt so pretty. I could see myself in it and then I decided to buy it and wear it on my date night with John. 

So now down to the dirty work!

When I weighed myself today I lost another 1/2lb! So 3.5lbs in 2 days. Not too shabby at all! I will take it!

Breakfast:
Pink Smoothie
There are more smoothies I am just on such a tight budget this one I keep drinking has the least amount of ingredients. Also, you can use rice or coconut milk. I think I am going to try coconut milk next time.

Lunch:
McDonalds Jr Hamburger and a small fry. So on the way home from dress shopping today I had a migraine and it would not go away so my mom said lets stop and get something small to eat. Cole was asleep in the car finally! So I didn't want to wake him and so we went through drive through and I knew this would be the best option that I could eat while driving. So I ended up eating 525 calories for lunch. And I was able to stay in my calories intake for the day. Also if I would have normally eaten from there  I would have had a #1 upsized with a sweet tea.

Dinner:
Rotisserie chicken breast, peas, and mixed veggies

Ok now off to bed so I can get some sleep if it is ok with Cole.

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

I have looked at the truth...and it is UGLY!

Hey Chics! So I have just looked at my pictures and I am speechless! I can now see why people ask me when I am expecting. I still look pregnant! 

At first I wasn't going to post them. I mean who in their right mind would want someone to see this? Then again if I was picked to go on a TV show or put on the site then they would be there for the whole world to see! So I will start out small. I look like what many women do right now. So I will be proud of my chunks until they are gone! 

Now on to GREAT news! In the 1st day I lost 3 lbs! Oh yea! I am 188lbs now! Good-bye 190's! 

Ok now on to business as normal...

Breakfast:
Another PINK smoothie

Lunch:
Sonny's BBQ
Salad, chicken, and veggie soup
It is nice to be on a diet and I am able to go eat out and know I will be ok!

Dinner:
Chicken Fajitas! Now I made them at home and all I ate was the chicken and peppers and onions.

Snack:
raw carrots (I could eat them all day but I do miss the ranch dressing)

Tomorrow I am going dress shopping with my sis and the girls for a bridesmaid dress. I hope if I buy something it will still fit in March. I really can't wait to start exercising!

I do need to tell you about something that happened today that hurt after I said it about myself. John and I have been looking at wedding bands and then I saw this beautiful engagement ring. Now I do love my ring and I would never get rid of it but I do have an "A" type personality and as much as I love my ring it is yellow gold and I can't stand yellow gold. So I saw the ring and he called his aunt today to find out the price and it is $5,000 but we could get it for about $2,500. I shook my head no.When he asked me why I actually said "because I am not worth that much." Wow, is that really how I feel about myself? What I thought I meant to say was that is just too expensive and I don't want to spend that much. I hope that I don't keep thinking that way.

See you tomorrow!
xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Day 1...And I am TIRED!

Hey Chics! I wish that I could say I have everything that I said would be on here but I don't. I am so freaking tired! I can in way under my calories today and now I am feeling it. I still haven't gotten the pics off of my camera and there is no video today because since it is Monday my dad is over and we are watching football and wrestling. So I don't feel like trying to make a video with my dad and John in the back ground lol.

I can say this is going to be a struggle for me. I almost feel like someone who has been smoking for many years and then just gives it up. I am going through some crazy with drawl.  I want McDonalds or Longhorns but instead I ate at home all day and had no soda. I have been a little pissy to say the least.


My weight is still at 191 but I do not expect it to stay that way for long. I have to weigh myself every day for this 1st part of the program so I will give you a weight every day. 


Breakfast:
Pink Smoothie
1cup almond milk
1 scoop of vanilla whey powder
1/2 cup strawberries
I was so surprised that I loved it!! I was taken back a little by the almond milk but it was really good. I also wasn't happy with the price of everything when I bought it but then once you break it down per smoothie it isn't was bad.


Lunch
grilled chicken salad
french dressing


Dinner
4oz eye of round steak
A1 sauce
corn and green beans


Snack
raw baby carrots


I started back drinking just water and wow the migraine sucks! I hope I am in a better mood tomorrow and can write some more.

xoxoxo,
Kelly

Tomorrow My PINK Method Journey Begins

Hey Chics! So tomorrow it begins! I am excited and terrified at the same time! For the 1st 14 days (because of my weight) I am on the PINK Reset. This is where I don't have to exercise and it is to show me instant results. During this time I am suppose to lose 5-10lbs atleast. So I am excited to see that. I am terrified about what I can eat! No more starches for 14 days! Are you serious! No pasta? No potatoes? No lovely potatoes?! How will I go on!? lol I am sure I will be ok and it will all be worth it.

I was on the site today I get to use and I was looking at the forums and I am so happy that I will be able to post things from the site right to my blog! That is so awesome! I wasn't sure how much I could help people out and now I know I can do more then I thought. I will post many recipes so we can all start eating healthy. The first thing I will start off with every morning is a smoothie and there are things in it I would never think to buy. Like, almond milk and coconut water! Really? How about some skim milk and tap water? lol It would be a heck of a lot cheaper! But to be eligible to be part of their test I have to do this to the letter so I am going to.

Now, let me be honest. Since I found out that I would not be able to have any of the food that I love even in moderation all of me great eating I have been doing flew right out the window. I have been eating my potatoes, eating sandwiches, and having some pasta salad. I needed to get it out of my system!  Granted, I have done things like this in the past but not longer than 7 days. But I can do it! Pray for me! :)

Tomorrow I will post the pics I took tonight. I am kinda not too sure if I am going to post the exact ones I took for the PINK Method because I am in a sports bra and black shorts and as much as I am trying to go all out that for me is showing a lot. And I will also post my 1st video blog and then I will be posting those once a week. 

So wish me luck! And if you are deciding to come along for the ride and get healthy yourself then I wish you luck too!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

They Picked ME!

Hey Chics! I am over the moon right now! I am feeling better than yesterday but extremely tired because Cole is cutting 2 more teeth and he has such a hard time with it. I thought I was going to vent today but instead I am going to celebrate! 

Remember how I said I wrote into the PINK Method asking if I could be one of their "success stories"? Well I got the email today that I have been selected! I am happier than a pig in mud! This is the platform I have been wanting for so long that I hope in the end I do get to show everyone what I accomplished and that anyone can! Happy Dance!!! I have to fill out some paperwork and then I get started. It is almost going to be like a job! I love it! And who reads this will get to see it all because I will just incorporate it into the blog. 

John and I also went to look at wedding bands today. It was a lot of fun but as we were I found the engagement ring of my dreams! It is so beautiful. I can still see it on my finger now! Do I already have an engagement ring? Yup. John went to get my ring only knowing the kind of cut I like and he got me a yellow gold ring. I love it because it came from his heart but I am not liking the yellow gold and we are also having a hard time finding a band that fits it. And if you know me, if it doesn't look right I can't do it. He said I could sell this one and get another one but I don't like that option because this ones means so much to me too. That would be awesome though if he got the other one and then actually proposed! But I am happy with whatever I end up with because in the end it isn't the ring that means anything like the love we have for each other.

Ok so down to business...

Exercise: Another day of just playing with Cole. I can say that I am feeling it in my stomach big time! I am going to track my PINK Method tonight and hope it is here soon!

Food: Yea about this. John and I were out today and I kinda made some bad choices. I better get this out of my system now! 

Breakfast: None (yea I know not a good start to the day)
Lunch: 1pc of fried chicken, loaded potato casserole, and green beans
Dinner:Chicken and rice
Snacks: A couple chips and a few bites of cheese cake
Drinks: Yup I feel off the soda wagon and had one today. But right after I got back to the water and I am beginning to like it more and more.

Ok enough for the day now time for a little mommy time since everyone is in bed!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Short and Sweet (Like ME!)

Hey Chics! I am sorry but tonight I am going to keep this short and sweet. It seems like the later it gets in the day the worse I am feeling so I plan on calling it an early night.

Today was the best exercise that I had. I played with Cole outside for about an hour. This was some workout playing though. He wanted to get the basketball in the hoop so I was having to pick him up (squats) and the place a 30lb kids over my head (works the bicep, tricep, and core muscles) and then back down. I think we did that about 20 times. Then we were just running around playing "you can't catch me" I think that we tired each other out. I did also get an email today that my PINK method was on its way so I am super excited! I figure that is when I will post my pics because that is when the full journey begins. I hope that it gets here and I am able to start it by Monday.

When it comes to eating I was on the fence today. I don't have calorie counts but I can tell you what I put in my mouth. Breakfast was 2 pieces of toast with some peanut butter. Lunch was some chili and crackers. Dinner was a pork chop, scalloped potatoes, and mixed veggies. Although dinner may not have been the healthiest I do still watch my portion size and I never go back for seconds. Oh and for dessert I am having 1/2 a cup of ice cream. I don't notice it is such a small portion because I eat it as I am blogging so I take my sweet time. And it is so sweet!

http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/100-foods-dr-oz-wants-your-shopping-cart 

Above is the link for the 100 foods that should be in your house according to Dr. Oz. I love him and I love his show so I do listen to some things he says. I though this list was really interesting and I was surprised at all the foods I like on there and some I will try. But the fish...uh no. Oh and the soy hamburgers and hotdogs...I am going to buy them just to see who I can get them past.

Have a great night and tomorrow I will be venting!

xoxoxo,
Kelly

 

Something I'm not suppose to talk about...

I am trying to catch my breath right now after working out. It was so cold in my house I decided nothing better than working out to warm up! And well, it worked!

Today has been so productive with getting things done but the eating wasn't the best. I can always do better. I just wish this PINK Method would come in so I can fully get on the program! I have so much I want to accomplish but in this department I need a little help.

So I entered this contest for an engagement photo session and pics for my wedding discounted. I was the 1st to enter and I tried to help her get more and then I get an email that she wants to know how we met and how he proposed! Are you serious? Why can't you just pick a number? Now you need a bio and people are going to vote! This sucks! Why? Because I never really got a proposal. I was laying in bed one day because I wasn't feeling good (I was pregnant with Cole) and he came in handed me a box and said "do what you want with it"). I am suppose to write that? Oh hell no! This has been bothering me and it does when I read or see all these sweet proposals and I got that. Oh and that is pretty much how my ex proposed to me too so that hurt even more. So how can I write that? So I kinda made it a little better sounding. I was kinda embarrassed. Then I get on there and there is a pick of a girl and her fiance' hugging in his military uniform because he was back from boot camp. So now she gets all the votes and I might as well give it up! I could have said John was a Vet.Oh I am sounding not so good...on to other things...

Exercise: Another 10 min workout

Meals:

Breakfast: 
chick fil a 680cal


Lunch:
skipped it felt like crap from the fast food


Dinner:
Homemade Chili 366cal


Total Calories: 1040 


Now it is time to finish up my to do list for the day! Tomorrow we will talk about that list of food!!


xoxoxo,
Kelly

Here We Go!

Hey Chics! So I have completed day 1 and I will say I am pretty flippin proud of me! I still do not have the diet that I want to use so I am just trying to make some healthy decisions and exercise. Since the kids are back in school tomorrow I can be back on my schedule and things should go even better. The only thing I do not have to post today is my pictures. I never got into workout clothes till everyone was in bed so I will have some taken tomorrow. So let's get down to some business shall we...

Weight: 191lbs 
(This is what I have been since I ended the last diet I was on. I was happy to be out of the 200's but this is not even close to where I want to be). My over all goal is 135lbs by November.)

Here are my measurements. For the record: this is more embarrassing for me to post then my weight and photos combined! But you can't change what you don't acknowledge so here you go

Waist: 41in

Neck: 14.5in

Leg:23in

Bust:40in

Arm:11.5in

Holy crap! My boobs are almost as big as my waist! That is a damn shame!


So here is what I ate today. Right now it is rough financially this time of year so it is not time for me to buy groceries so I am still eating what everyone eats but I am cutting and measuring portions. I need to stay between 1200-1500 calories. I can also say that I did not have any soda today! I have been a little pissy but I survived!

Breakfast:

2 pieces of toast with peanut butter 330 cal

Lunch:

Veggie Soup and crackers 360 cal

Dinner:

Pasta salad

Tomato noodles

Green beans

Chicken 465 cal

Snack: 

Chocolate Ice Cream 140 cal

Total Cal: 1295 cal!

I made it! And all I drank was water so that is 0 yup 0 calories!!!

Exercise:

10 minute workout that I saw on Dr. Oz I will post it soon. It is something you can do every day it is only 10 mins and yup it's FREE! I told you I would make this as cheap as I can for you!

Other than that today has just been a day to get everything back in order for kids to go back to school, the holidays to be over, and for me to figure out how to use my time wisely! Tomorrow I will get into shopping and something I saw on TV that gives you a list of what should be in your house. I can see it now there is probably nothing in my kitchen that makes the list! Ok I am pooped! See you tomorrow!

xoxoxo,

Kelly

 

Happy New Years!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! Are you ready? I am extremely happy to get going! It all starts tomorrow. Do you have any resolutions? I do! Like I have said before as for myself becoming healthy and losing weight it is no way a resolution. My resolutions are to quit stressing so much and to be more patient. I stress about everything and I know a lot of it has to do with my high anxiety but at the same time I know it is not healthy (and probably one of the reasons I have high blood pressure). Patience is something I use to have tons of and I think I still do but only for other people and their kids lol. Every little things my kids do sometimes just sets me off. I apologize like crazy and they always tell me I need a break. Gotta love them :)

Ok, now let me tell you a little bit about my blog and how this will go for now. I am going to keep it a blog until I can figure out how to convert it into a website which I must say is way harder than I thought it would be. And at the end of this blog I am going to let you in on a little secret :) So read on!

Tomorrow will the the beginning of this chapter of weight loss for me. I could take down the other posts and start from scratch but then that doesn't show that I have had to struggle just like any one else. So you will see my pics tomorrow of how I look now in some workout clothes (I am so dreading that), also my weight and some measurements. Each week I will tell my weight and once a month I will post how many inches lost. I will let you know what I am eating and the work outs I did and as always some info I think you may found helpful. I love to cook so be ready for some recipes! And here is a warning to anyone that has never read my blogs...I have NO filter. If something is bothering me I am going to say it and if it is with someone I will never use names but this is my outlet and I am an emotional eater so instead of drowning myself in food I let it out in words.

I love feedback and if you have anything you want to share please leave it in the comments. Even post your weight loss and workouts or menus! So let's get ready!

And I do have more reasons to get this weight off...I need to fit in a dress around November ;) And I NEVER wear dresses!

xoxoxo,
Kelly