You Learn A LOT When You Don't Eat Your Emotions...

Hey Chics! I am sorry it has been a couple days but I had to take a step back and start to see some things going on in my life and they have been eye opening and one I just figured out today!

First off this past weekend was a blast. I was able to spend some grown-up time with John and we went to dinner and came home and relaxed. The next day we went to a flea market and then to lunch. Did I behave myself at all...nope. I felt horrible after but it was so good. I will say though it was so nice and peaceful just the two of us and then as soon as we picked up the kids I picked back up my stress right along with it. 

Yesterday I started the PINK Method exercise and I only got through 13mins of it because Cole woke up but I can say it is kick ass! I feel like I worked out for 2 hrs! You aren't just working 1 muscle group at a time. I was working my core, legs, and arms all at the same time! I didn't do it today and I will fill you in on why in just a minute.

I have been very stressed and depressed the past week or so. I have no feeling of accomplishment anymore. I use to have a job with dead lines and people needing me to do things and answer questions in a structured environment. Now it is a struggle to get the dishes in the dishwasher without Cole trying to climb in it or just scream. I am constantly finding myself holding back tears that just want to come out but I have to be the strong mommy. So instead I eat. Yesterday I couldn't stop eating! Today has been better. It is just so hard I can't get on a schedule and I feel so unmotivated. I am already having to get up at 6am and by the time I get back home from taking Dustin Cole is up. I don't know how long the naps are going to last and I finally get my break once everyone is in bed and that time is devoted to cleaning (and writing my blog). It is not in me to beable to stay up till 1am and then be up at 6am. I'm not that damn young anymore! I love my kids and I could never picture my life without them but I have to find balance. I am truly scared I am going to have a stroke one of these days if I can't get my stress under control. 

So tomorrow is a new day. I have a DR. appointment to goto. Hopefully I will see the end of the bp pills but I doubt it. And I hope to get a full day in of exercise. 

Oh and my weight is 188lbs. You see I gained 3lbs back but not for long!

xoxoxo,
Kelly