Sorry that I have been neglecting this blog. I love having an outlet and I know I haven't been utilizing it the way I should. Instead I am going back to old habits and I know I have been eating a little more. I haven't been sticking to my diet and I haven't been exercising like I should. Granted, I have not gained any weight back but I also know it is just a matter of time before it starts to come back.
So now I have to sit here and regroup only to get back on track and start again. But how? One thing I know I have to do is quit worrying about schedules. I have a baby and 2 big kids which just equals one hectic schedule. I have tried to get outside every day. It has been my way to wash away the stress from the day. Lately though I have had to take Cole with me. I don't mind but it can become frustrating when he isn't into it and I have to cut my workout short and it really just stresses me even more.
I love my kids so much and would do anything for them and to keep them safe. But I also need some time for me. I don't want hours and hours just 30 mins a day! I can't after he goes to bed because that is when I clean the house and sometimes do some working out in the house. John is working like crazy right now so I do feel bad if I ask him to take time away from work so that I can have some free time. I know that work becomes overwhelming for him and it is funny because I know that he sees I do a lot but I don't think he understands how it can get to a person to have no time to themselves. Then you have me who knows how hard he works but would love to be able to sit in an office for a couple hours a day with no one bothering you. Or just riding around all day by myself. Granted I would not want to trade being a mom but not hearing any fussing for an hour...oh sign me up! lol I joke but at the same time I appreciate everything he does because I wouldn't be able to be with Cole all the time if it wasn't for him.
Wow, I just got off the subject of this blog. Jumping back on now!
So my new plan is to just get in the exercising when I can through out the day. Even the blog will be done when I have time. I am going to break out my dry erase boards (I LOVE dry erase boards they are what got me through college) and just make a list of what has to be done during the day and erase it one thing at a time.
As for the food and eating thing...I have to get back to the 17 day diet. Because I have not gained any weight back I am just going to start on the 2nd cycle again. I just have to keep it stupid simple. Meat and veggies,veggies, veggies. With the occasional carb. I know there is more to the menu that that but I am just giving the cliff notes right now.
The big picture is that I have to quit over thinking it all. I have to let go of perfection and understand that I am a mom and there are going to be days that I may not be able to jog or workout but tomorrow is another day. And finally I need to blog my feeling not eat them away.
There are so many things I am ready to talk about that have been weighing on my mind from kids, to love, to myself. So get ready for some more blogs that I'm sure will entertain and make you see that life can be so crazy!
xoxoxo,
Kelly
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