CLARITY!

I know that I am not doing this every night and to be honest I won't be. I will do it when the mood strikes which is normally at least once a week. I am personally ok with that now, because I have found clarity in all of this!

I have wanted to do this weight loss thing for a very long time but along the way I have wanted to help others. To show them that we are all human and will have our ups and downs but in the end we will prevail. Now I know I was going about it all wrong! I was so worried about being perfect which was the exact opposite of what I was trying to tell people. Hey I can give great advice but that doesn't mean I take it! Because of this I have been praying for some type of clarity of what I need to do to not only make myself healthy but to hopefully inspire someone that they can do it to.

I was trying every workout, supplements, etc. I thought that one of them would work and that would be what I would tell every one about and I would get skinny and it would happen! Then...nope! I would fail and then you would not hear from me until I was ready to try the next "thing" again. Well that is no more! 

I still want to help people but to do that I need to show them that I can help myself. So that is what I am doing. I am no longer doing a certain program. I am doing my own which is a little of every thing I have tried from different programs and liked. I am going to exercise every day now.

Another HUGE change I have decided on is when I exercise. I don't know why I had it in my mind that I had to wait till night time to exercise. I am not a morning person so I chopped it up to working out once everyone went to bed. Duh! I was tired too so I would either half ass it or not do it at all and well that wasn't going to get me anywhere so now I exercise during nap time before I do my normal work. I have to workout in our office and I normally don't like to workout in front of anyone. Why you may ask? Because when I was a kid and my mom did her Jane Fonda or was Sweating to the Oldies I would be laughing and cracking jokes the whole time! Sorry mom! So now I have to say screw it! Laugh if you want to and crack jokes because I am getting healthy for myself and my kids! 

So hear me now...I will be healthy, I will make healthy choices, I will take care of ME the way I see fit, and I will keep this clarity to be victorious in my journey!