Finding Myself Beautiful

So here I am. I needed a little break which stinks because right now I have 3 topics in my head and I will talk about 2 today. They are both from the devotionals I am reading and the first one I will start with is every dieters favorite lie they love to tell themselves. You know it! I shouldn't even have to post it but I will...

I'll start again on Monday!!!
Do you know how many Monday's I have devoted to starting my diet over? Ever Monday since I was 20! Considering I am now 32 they is a lot of Mondays and I am just getting bigger. I weighed myself today and I am 201 lbs! Even after reading this I still said to myself I will start on Monday! Really? I would kick myself in the butt if my legs weren't so short! Why have we programed ourselves this way? Why would we wait till Monday when everybody already dreads Monday? So here it is...I am starting TODAY! FRIDAY! 

I could never give up that!

I believe this one little shift in our thinking can make us feel empowered, instead of feeling denied. Rather than giving in to the foods we crave, we can have God’s self-control to make a completely different decision, such as a decision for health . . . a decision for renewed energy . . . a decision for confidence and peace. Most importantly, a decision that honors both our body and God!

What is that one thing you feel that you can not give up? I have always felt I can not give up potatoes and ketchup! I love them both! It could be worse. I never thought I could give up pasta but marry a man who doesn't eat pasta and that is not a problem at all! Now I have to look at the bigger picture. What is worth giving up all the bad crap? My kids. That wasn't hard to figure out. They are why I am here. I was put on this earth to be a mom and I am not about to take me away from them too early. 

I think that is one thing we all need to figure out. What is worth giving that "thing" up that has a hold on you. Is it family, a better relationship with God, YOU!  

 Ok I lied there is one more I want to touch on. The whole reason for the name of this entry...

Finding Myself Beautiful

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said, “Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not.” I’ve found my beautiful. And I like my beautiful. I don’t have to hold my beautiful up to other people’s bodies with a critical eye of judgment. I pray that you see your beautiful today and enjoy the blessings of the body that God gave you.

I can not begin to explain how much this one spoke to me. I cried. From the outside you would think I am confident and love everything about myself. But behind closed doors I am a wreck when I wake up and know that I have to get dressed because everything in my closet reflects a healthier woman that I was a few years back. My tummy bulges over my jeans and my shirts ride up to show my stomach. Not a pretty site at all. 

I know the body I am in right now is just not me. For the time I am in it I have to adapt and I decided to do that today. I use to take pride in my appearance.  I was always put together and looked like a million bucks! Once I met my husband things changed. He is one of those guys who doesn't really care how he looks and how people see him. Sooner or later he slowly rubbed off on me. That is just not me.

I have felt lost for a little while now. I am just not "me." So today I got out the pair of jeans that fit, a shirt I finally got into, did my hair and makeup and went out. Even though it was just to my sons school it was so nice to feel like I looked good! Not just in some old tshirt to hide the roll that my pants were giving me. 

I love the body that I was blessed with. My boobs are pretty (even after 3 kids) and my booty is stellar! The belly is all I need to work on. It is a problem area and a HUGE health risk. 

So  here is to tomorrow (not Monday!) When I will find myself beautiful every day and will give up things that are not here to help me in my journey.

xoxoxo,

Kelly