You are My Sunshine...

The past 2 days have been a fog and I think I may stay in it for a couple more. There is one thing that is certain though I have had a "come to Jesus" moment today. I have been trying to figure out what it is going to take to make me see that I can be a better person and not live with this battle with food for the rest of my life and the answer was clear...my Sunshine!

Ok let me back up a bit. My husband is in the hospital right now and will be having his gallbladder removed. I am here with 3 kids trying to keep everything afloat, including myself. The worst part is explaining it to our 2 year old son, Cole. Good luck with that lol. Last night it was his first night without his daddy and it was so hard. The only way I could calm him down was to sing "his" song, you are my sunshine about 20 times in a row. The look on his face is heart breaking when we leave the hospital and daddy can't come too. I will now never do this to my kids. Granted there are times we can't help it like this one but the times that can be prevented I want to do just that...prevent.

I will no longer let food get to me. It will be hard and I am sure I will fall from time to time but I will not let it get me down or quit. When John gets home he is going to change too. I want him around for a long time and so does Cole and I don't want to let him down any longer. 

Now on to my 30 day challenge. You are getting 2 days in one since yesterday I did not blog.

Day 2: Overweight physically and underweight spiritually
Yup that is me! I don't want it to be anymore though. I am taking the steps and the first one was joining this group. 

Day 3: Excuse me! Pass the shame...please!
Once again I can see myself! This one hits very close to home! If you look at this blog from the beginning I have started and stopped, gone from one diet to the next, and sometimes even telling myself I am fine just the way I am. Maybe God wanted me to look like this. I still can't believe that I even thought that. While reading this devotional the end paragraph spoke volumes to me and I feel the need to share...

"We need a power beyond our frail attempts and fragile resolve. We need strength greater than our taste buds, hormones, temptations, and our inborn female demand for chocolate. Yes, the truth of who we are and the power to live out that truth — that’s what we need. So, say it out loud with me today: I was made for more!"

It is so true! I am made for more! I will no longer make one excuse after another. I want to be with my Sunshines for so many more years and spend my rocking years with my husband. So even with everything that is going on tomorrow I will make healthier choices and I will exercise! 

xoxoxo,

Kelly