Day????...I Don't Know if I Should Laugh or Cry!

You really didn't think you would get rid of me that easily did you? I have been around and having a lot of ups and downs. I think that I have been gone for about a week now. But don't worry I am not about to write you a book  or give you food logs for the past week. Let's just say I could have done way better with the eating because we have gone out to eat so much. The weekend was crazy from Friday night until Monday morning we ate out. And it was soooo good. Five guys twice in once weekend, some Japanese steak house, and I can;t even remember the rest. Now the exercising, that is another story.I stayed active all last week doing everything my game wanted me to. Then Monday came around and then I had to hit the scale...

Boy did I hit it too. I gained 4 lbs! That was it! O was I done! How in the hell! I was so upset with myself I truly didn't care anymore so I ate. Well I snacked and loved on the soda! I have done this for the past couple days. Then I was watching a show and a personal trainer was on a girl that was doing all this exercising but eating horrible and she asked her why do all this work and then eat and lose nothing? And it is true. I just seriously don't know how to stop! I am fine at home but when it comes to eating out I suck! And I know what you are thinking, just don't eat out. Easier said than done.John and I am constantly on the go on the weekends and we can't go home, eat, and then leave again. Please I am begging anyone to give me some tips! Oh and I am not upset about the 4lb gain. On Tuesday my aunt came to town so I just decided that next Monday is another day :)

So no I haven't quit. Life has just had me so wrapped up lately that I have just been running with it. But because I haven't been blogging I can feel everything building up inside of me. I have to watch what I put on here some times because of who might read it so on that note I will be deleting people on my face book that I could care less if I talk to or not just so I can get things off of my chest. My schedule has been ran into the ground because Boogies has been a Booger lol. But hey, he's a baby! I just have days where I am ready to cry. I see people playing games, talking on the phone, or taking a nap. And what am I doing...trying to clean and play with Cole at the same time. I love my baby please don't think for a second I am complaining about being a mom cause I know that this comes with the territory but geeze, I just want to be able to sit and not know that I should be cleaning. On Tuesday I finally got to exercise late and as soon as I started there is Cole crying.I just put my head down on the balance board and started to sob! So we came and lie on the bed, and he gave me a big huge smile and started laughing and all I could do was smile and laugh myself.
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So here I am, back again! Don't worry...you'll see me tomorrow!