New Schedule is Great! Now Time to Make Me Happy!

Hey Chics! So this was my first day of trying this new schedule and I must say that I love it! Here is it 8:00 and I am already blogging. Sure I have to straighten the living room before I can exercise but I can't exercise till 9:30 anyway! Laundry is going, kitchen is clean, Cole is laying down with John, and I am still getting things accomplished! 

Now I can say eating was so-so today. If I am home and I see that chart I am good but since I was gone all day I didn't see it and I ate badly. So now I am going to make it the wallpaper to my phone. I am happy to say thought I drank more water than anything! I want to cross off one of those weight boxes off so bad! I was down a 1/2lb this morning so I hope I lose that other 1/2 tonight so I can say bye bye to a box! Who knew a little piece of paper could hold so much power lol.

On to another subject that I was not really talked to much about...until now! The wedding. If you have been hiding under a rock or are new to this post I am getting married in November of this year. Yup, I am the girl who said she would never do it again, doing it again! Go figure. Everything is pretty much going as planned. Only complaints so far is out 75-100 guests has reached 156 invites and even though I know not everyone will show up that is a little scary. Then again my last wedding almost no one came so this will be better. My other complaint is a little harder to talk about but I have to get it out. 

I have a problem with making others happy and not myself and I am scared that I have done it yet again. When I saw myself walking down the aisle again I though that it was going to be in all lace. So I went with my mom, Dakota, and Shae to pick out a wedding dress. There I am trying on all these dresses with all these skinny minis around me and I was getting so upset. Every dress was making me feel like a cupcake. All these little things were trying on the lace dresses I wanted. So after trying on about 10 dresses Dakota and Shae went a picked out one and it was so different I had to try it on. So I did and everyone loved it and so did I...or so I thought. My mom got me the dress because it was discontinued and I was so happy. Now looking back though I am 2nd guessing myself. I am not sure that I loved it because I wanted it or because I was trying to make everyone happy and get out of there so I didn't have to watch one more skinny person try on another dress. I didn't glow or have that moment at all. I never even got to try a lace dress on. Did I settle? Or am I just 2nd guessing myself for no reason? I am so confused! The reason this makes me feel so bad is that #1 my mom helped me pay for my dress and #2 my daughter and future stepdaughter picked it out for me and that made it special too. 

I am not sure what my plan is yet but I am not dismissing the dress at all I want to lose more weight and go from there. I want to see what it looks like once I am thinner and I also will go and try on a lace dress just to either put my mind at ease or know I made the wrong choice. So I figure I will post a pic of me in my dress and you can let me know what you think about it...honestly!

Ok I need to clean now and then off to exercise. Tomorrow I am going to talk about a health scare that hit really close to home.

xoxoxo,
Kelly