We found out about a week ago that the home we have been renting is being foreclosed on that just sucks. No I have not been happy with the space in the house but I though that I would have more time to find exactly what we needed and once again we got thrown into finding something that will work. And we did. The house is bigger but the land is smaller and I can see my neighbors. I just have an uneasy feeling about the whole thing. We move in on the 10th of next month and if in the end we love the place then we can buy it. I don't know it might just be my anxiety talking and I really hope that is all it is. So I am about to start packing all over again! I am so damn sick of packing! I want to buy a house! I feel bad I have to keep moving my kids from home to home. So my goal is by the time I am 35 we WILL own our own home.
So my eating sucks. Yup I said it! Why can't I get it in gear! I hate looking like this, feeling like this, but why can't I snap out of it! Am I really that addicted? I feel like it. I know it is all in my head but I just don't know how to snap out of it and get it in gear. If I don't I'm never gonna get in my wedding dresses! Cause I don't right now. Oh and yes I have 2 dresses and I know that was suppose to be my next post but I will write about it next time.
I think I am just stuck right now. Sometimes I feel like I am losing myself again. Like today I went with the girls to get our nails done for my sisters wedding on Sunday. I truly forgot how much I liked doing that. Taking time out for me is something I just don't do. I need to. I almost feel bad for wanting to take time out for me but I am just seeing that I need to. I want to feel pretty and yup sometimes doing something as small as that makes me feel pretty. I use to feel so good about myself and now it has all just gone away. I want to not feel so self conscious and it is just getting worse.
Ok I am done for the night. It is time for bed!
xoxoxo,
Kelly
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