Did you think I was gone again? Nope. I have been just trying to figure out a lot maybe too much at once. Who knows. Oh yea I do. Probably thinking of way too much at once. I have enough in my head for about 5 blogs so this should be a good week of back to back blogs. For now I will just rant about how I have been feeling and a little into why. So I will give you a minute to get comfy and then I will get to it...
Okay! So I was out of it for 2-3 weeks. It sucked! And honestly it sucked me dry. I was ready to go again and guess what...all the drive and passion was gone. To be honest just didn't care. Why didn't I care? Dang if I know I just didn't. I even asked on the group page I am on what could I do to get motivated and nothing still clicked.
I truly I feel like I am in a fog right now. I am trying to figure out so much right now. How to get this weight off is of course the first thing. What sucks is there is no support here. I love my husband and my kids but what I am doing is not for them and I get that. And yes I know it is up to me to change my life but it just sucks that I feel so alone doing it.
There are no close friends. Do I have friends? Sort of. Anyone who I know I could call at anytime. Nope. It just doesn't work that way. My biggest supporter is my 2 year old. He is the one every morning ready to get up and exercise!
Like I said I just feel lost in a fog. Sorry if this blog is so choppy. Might not even make sense. For me though this is just my thought process sometimes...
So now I get on to my "job." I am in direct sales. I sell pretty lockets. Do I like the company. Sure do. An I going to stay with it? Probably not. I have no time. We have our main business and then I am a mom. I started doing this on the side as a hobby so I could have a break, get out of the house, etc. Nope! What the hell was I thinking! Once again I will put this on the back burner. Maybe once Cole is in school I will do something else.
Wow this isn't a blog. This is a vent! This is not a pitty fest. Just a vent fest! I know what I want to do. I want to get this weight off and prove everyone wrong. I want to be healthy and I want to help people. Right now I help people with my locket business. I make 1 locket a month for someone who could use a pick me up. I have given 4 away so far. 2 to cancer patients and 2 to ladies who had angel babies. I love doing it. Believe me this direct sales business is not a money maker for me and I am fine with that. It is just nice to see someone smile.
I get it. This blog makes no sense. Are you in as much of a fug as I am in now?
I think it would be better if I just let it go and get some sleep! :)
xoxoxo,
Kelly
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