Day 16: Family Must Come First

These past couple of days have been exhausting! With John in the hospital I have been worrying about him, trying to keep the house clean, running errands for the business, etc. I just don't feel like I can stop. Then I also had Dakota and her friend with me so they helped with the baby. I just feel like I almost can't breathe!

As for sleep, I give up on that! You know we may have a California King bed and stay on our own side of the bed but not having him there and knowing he was in the hospital bed, there was no way I could sleep. But luckily he came home today. We still don't know what is 100% wrong and won't till he has some more tests done but it looks like it is another complication of his diabetes. This is something he will always live with. He doesn't have type 2 where he can lose weight, become healthy, and it goes away. Instead he has to be healthy and take care of himself. Sometimes I think I am more scared then he is. I just don't want to lose him and I don't want Cole to lose him either.

On another note I am just getting more and more stressed and boy has God been pushing me to my limits. There he goes with that sense of humor again. First, John ends up in the hospital. Then the next day as I am driving home from the hospital I am coming down the road and BAM! my car falls apart. My neighbors needed a 4wd to pull me to the side of the road and I offered to go to the house and get ours. Could it have ended that easily? Nope! Got in the truck only to find that the battery was dead! So one of my other neighbors was nice enough to pull my car with his tractor (yup, it's funny). So then I had to find another car because neither one of ours works and John is in the hospital so he can't help with any of this (the vehicles are his deal not mine) and I could just feel the panic attack coming on! So I go to call John and what happens...my phone won't hold a call anymore, and keeps freezing up! You have to be kidding me! Finally all was calm, and I never want to have to do that again!

So you are probably wondering about the good ol' diet right? I wish you weren't but I am going to try to remember what I had. It wasn't the healthiest but I did stay in my calories.

Exercise: Between all the running around I did that was enough!

Meals:

Breakfast: Nope!

Lunch: Zaxbys 2 nibblers and some fries

Dinner: Dennys 1piece of french toast, 1/2 order of hash browns, and 2 pieces of bacon

Snacks: No time!

So that is about it! Now on to the next day!