While everyone is ready to make their "resolutions" I simply say screw that! Resolutions are constantly broken. No one sticks to them and if you tell someone you have made a resolution they just look at you and laugh. So for me this is a commitment! A commitment to myself and my family. I am committing to be a healthier me! This isn't something I am taking lightly anymore. Sure I have said a couple hundred times this time will be different, we are going to become a healthy family, and then a week later I am in the Mc Donalds drive thru ordering a #1 large! It took a wake up call like no other for me to see that if I don't change I won't be here for my kids.
First off I come from an unhealthy family. We are plagued with high blood pressure, high cholesterol, diabetes, etc. So you would think that I would have been a little more cautious to begin with, but nope! I saw my dad go through open heart surgery, and yet he still won't put the butter down. That is something I never want to put my children through. For a split second I though I was going to lose my daddy way too soon. As I sit here and say that I would never want to put my kids through that, in a way I almost did.
Like I said before high blood pressure runs in my family and it hits me extremely bad during pregnancy. This last pregnancy was nothing different. It had been 8 years since the last time I was pregnant and this one was going pretty good even though I was at my heaviest going into the pregnancy it was great. I was worried but that didn't stop me from eating at every fast food place I could. And then it all hit me at once I was put on blood pressure pills and made it to my delivery day. I went though the csection no problem only to wake up in recovery next to a crash cart. My blood pressure was rising instead of falling (with eclampsia your blood pressure should fall after delivery). They gave me medicine through my iv and finally after over 4 hrs they had me stable enough to go into a room. If you would have came into my room you would have seen a shell of me. I was so pale my lips had no color because I lost so much blood. I stayed an extra day and was sent home on iron pills (there was no way I was going to have a blood transfusion) and 250mg blood pressure pills to take 4 times a day!
After getting home and talking to John about my time in recovery I realized I almost put my kids in that situation. For those few hours he was scared that my kids would not have a mom. And now as I worry to get myself healthy I will also worry about him. With him being a diabetic he should take care of himself better. He is also willing to get healthy to be around for these kids as well. It's going to be a challenge because for the first time I will be cooking more diabetic friendly meals, something we have never done before. He also plans on doing a 5k with me as well which I am so excited about. I want to make this a family project. I want my kids to be healthy and full of life!
So Monday it begins! I am going to take my measurements, post pics, and menus. If I have had a bad day I will blog, if I'm ready to give in I will blog, when I try new things I will blog. It is safe to say I will blog a lot. If I fall off the wagon you will know. I want people to see that if you have a bad day you don't quit. SO here is to Monday! The beginning of a new me!
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