This has just been a really crappy day and I will admit at the moment I am a bit depressed and it is taking everything in my power not to eat. I just feel like I am being judged for every last thing that I do. It sucks. I just want everyone to be happy but I never feel like that is obtainable. Or when it begins to look that way something falls apart. I just don't get it.
My downfall today is eating out two times today. John called and asked if I wanted to meet for lunch and then he asked if I just wanted to get dinner because of the storm. And I just don't know how to say no. Then I say ok I will but I will eat something healthy and I start off good but bring on the french fries! Epic Fail!
Here is something I have been pondering over today. I am sitting there watching Heavy and I use to be fat. I watch a lot of weight loss shows. Then I realized where is the show for me? I am not morbidly obese but I could end up that way. Why doesn't someone have a show on for people who want to learn how to take their life back before it gets to late. I don't need to win anything but I would love the chance to spend time with a nutritionist and work with a trainer who will kick my butt. I know that is available here but I can't afford it! I am a mom of 3 who has about 70lbs to lose and a diabetic boyfriend who I need to learn to cook for. I want my family to get moving! I should write Dr. Phil or Dr. Oz. I love those guys! lol
That's about all I have for tonight. I just want to go to bed. I have come to a point where there are things I want to blog about but until I can figure out a generic way to put things I will have to wait. I'm sure I will figure it out by tomorrow.
Exercise: Leg Lifts, Squats, and Crunches 50 of each. No walking because of the weather. No Zumba cause...damn if I know
Meals:
Breakfast: 2 waffles and syrup
Lunch: Sonnys turkey sandwich and fries
Dinner: Chick-fil-a chicken sandwich and small fry
Snack: Smart Ones Strawberry Shortcake (4pts) YUMMY!
I don't know all the calories because my book is in the kitchen but it is 1539 I think.
Let's see how things go tomorrow. I am going to bed so I don't eat!
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