Day 26...Gotta Take the Good with the Bad

Today has just been aggravating to say the least. I am just burnt out and feel like I can't breathe! John and I need to get away! Just a break would be nice. Hopefully next weekend at this time we will be in GA! Until then I am going to try to just breathe. By the end of the night at dinner I had this overwhelming feeling that I couldn't breathe. I thought I was about to have an anxiety attack. And believe me no one has done anything wrong I just need a break. I even hate saying that. I shouldn't need to say that. I love my family but being home all the time and I am cleaning or taking care of the kids and don't forget about cooking dinner. I just need a break.

Yesterday was so nice getting out for a few hours with my mom. We went to get some things to match the theme of the baby shower. I know she kinda wanted to go but it's just not going to happen. I want her to enjoy this and let me take care of everything. Plus with my OCD and her hormones it is better off this way.

So onto my news. I am proud of one thing and still awake cause I still feel like crap for the bad thing...

Good News: I got into a pair of my jeans! I won't lie they are still a little tight but I don't have to lay on the bed to zip them. I was so upset cause I thought all the jeans I could wear were dirty so I just thought I would just try it and woo hoo they fit! I really couldn't tell that I was losing weight but with that it made me realize I am.

Bad News: Well for one I did not exercise so I will take this as my day off. The main thing is though I let my emotions get the best of me. All I can say is that I ate today. I don't know the calorie content but I know it wasn't good. I just didn't care. I was so overwhelmed and instead of barking at everyone I chose the food. But tomorrow is another day and we are going to go get some produce so this doesn't happen again.

On to the good stuff:

Exercise: Day off

Meals:

Breakfast: Snickers Bar (not quite the breakfast of champions)
Lunch: Stevie B's (I wasn't impressed then again I don't like pizza too much) 1pc of chili cheese pizza, 1 breadstick, and a salad
Dinner: Perkins beef tips with rice and french fries
Snacks: 4 frosted cookies and a piece of apple pie

All the sugar today has made me feel like crap! Now time for bed.Good night and I will see you tomorrow!