As I stated in my last blog I love Ruby! She is an inspiration and very real. She shows her ups and downs and makes you feel as if you can do it too! So she has started a blog and is doing the 12 step program. I have heard that using the 12 step program but substituting alcohol or drugs for food is what you do. So I figure I am on board because I am so puzzled right now. Since I have listed "My Truths" I think that the eating has gotten worse.
I just don't seem to care until after. I just don't get it. I want to lose this weight so bad but instead I am just holding on to it. I hate that I am doing this and greatly dislike myself for it. I want to be happy and healthy so bad but I just can't figure out why I am not doing it! So I am going to try this to see if I can get to the bottom of it. I also think I need to get on a stricter eating plan so I am waiting on my copy of the 17 day diet to come in. If you follow it you can lose up to 12 lbs on the first 17 day cycle that will put me right before I go to Atlanta at the beginning of next month and I would love to get into one pair of my Wranglers and just be comfortable.
I know that I have been going back and forth on this and I hope that no one is giving up on me. I know I have tried to do this so many times that people normally give up on me or just feel like I am going to fail again or that I just can't do it. Kinda depressing but I just need to believe in me.
Ok on to the 1st step...
We admitted we were powerless over Food__and
Emotions_________
that our lives had become unmanageable.
I am truly powerless over food and my emotions. That's why they call it emotional eating! I get so upset that I can't do things, or buy things that I need, or my family needs me so I push myself to the side so I eat. When I eat I can do it alone, with family, I can grab a snack that takes 2 mins, or a sit down meal. It is the one thing in my life I can do really quick that doesn't require me to take time away from anyone and it cheap enough that I don't feel bad about spending money.
xoxoxo,
Kelly
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